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Money in art
Sep. 8th, 2015 08:17 pmLet's talk about money: I'm a self-employed artist, which means I haven't got much. I pride myself on my ability to get the most from what I do have, but I worry about my finances on a daily basis.
Still, the core realization that led me to this life was that security is an illusion, and I can't say that I worry much more than when I had a more conventional career path. In a way, I owe my anxiety issues a debt of gratitude: I decided early on that I might as well worry interestingly if worry is inevitable. Not to mention that I have millionaire friends who don't worry any less, suggesting that a mythical "comfort level" is a chimera that can never be caught.
And so I make the choices I make, dig the holes that I dig, and scramble out only to dig and dive into the next hole. I took the leap of faith that this path would work and it has done so for over fifteen years, but there are no promises for tomorrow except to keep jumping into the void with a hope, a prayer, and gratitude that I've been given so much already.
Still, the core realization that led me to this life was that security is an illusion, and I can't say that I worry much more than when I had a more conventional career path. In a way, I owe my anxiety issues a debt of gratitude: I decided early on that I might as well worry interestingly if worry is inevitable. Not to mention that I have millionaire friends who don't worry any less, suggesting that a mythical "comfort level" is a chimera that can never be caught.
And so I make the choices I make, dig the holes that I dig, and scramble out only to dig and dive into the next hole. I took the leap of faith that this path would work and it has done so for over fifteen years, but there are no promises for tomorrow except to keep jumping into the void with a hope, a prayer, and gratitude that I've been given so much already.
