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vinceconaway) wrote2015-05-22 10:11 am
vinceconaway) wrote2015-05-22 10:11 am
Comfort Zones
Nothing makes me feel more stupid than learning new music: I'm clumsy, hesitant, and incompetent. Every time I rehearse a new piece I wonder why I don't just coast on the 110+ I already know, upon which I could probably build the next 20 years of my career.
And then I remember the deal I made with myself in 2011: I can allow myself to appreciate my career arc and schedule as long as I challenge myself creatively. When everything is stagnant I get bored and burn out and, as painful as this process is, there's no better way of keeping myself in love with my job.
Besides, once I learn the piece I feel like a god. At least until I start the next...
And then I remember the deal I made with myself in 2011: I can allow myself to appreciate my career arc and schedule as long as I challenge myself creatively. When everything is stagnant I get bored and burn out and, as painful as this process is, there's no better way of keeping myself in love with my job.
Besides, once I learn the piece I feel like a god. At least until I start the next...